Tuesday, November 17, 2009


Dear Friend,

Hello. It's been a while since we've spoken. So often I sit here, only to write words and scribble them out, leaving an empty page. I never realized how appropriate that blank page was. Well, not until now. For what are words? Explanations of the mind, communicating thoughts, whether they are simplistic or complex. That empty page is a perfect picture of my state of mind at present. Blank. I go through my day mechanically, everything that I do is routine. I open my eyes in the morning, only to close them at night. What happens in between? I hardly know. Am I depressed? No, rather, I feel fairly content. Am I overwhelmed? Maybe underwhelmed. I have to daily remind myself of how alive I am, that God has a purpose for me. As the holiday season approaches, I feel myself slowly returning to consciousness. I remember how blessed I am, and how my life requires my attention. So here I am Lord, awake, ready and willing to do whatever it is you have planned. For what is your will? Simply this "Be joyful always, pray continually, and give thanks in all circumstances. For this is the will of God." I Thessalonians 5:16-18.